CHOOSE KINDNESS

 

14 days into July, well the second half of the year, not that anybody is actually counting but that’s that. I should have been posting this piece on July first or somewhere there about but Personally, the year has been going unbelievably “Jumanji” the next level for me. Will get into the “what nots “of what has been going on another time or never. All I know is I have been feeling like nothing has been going my way literally nothing. Modern slang “nothing doing” accurately describes the scenario at the moment.   Yes, it is as bad as it sounds, so I won’t be bringing to the lime light the intricate details of the scenarios but I will paint a picture in case someone out there feels like they are alone. I made it to top three of an internship that I have always wanted only to be left out, the writing gig I enjoyed so much fell through because my life was actually falling apart, I met someone who I thought I could build something with but gosh it ended in tears. So literally everything I touched has somehow been turning to dust.

Believe it when I say that there is rock bottom down at rock bottom, I have lived and known that place. There are times when you find yourself stuck between a rock and a hard place, you don’t see no point in soldiering on. Being honest about it, I have actually reached breaking points where I felt, there is no point in anything at all…life. I know the first half of the year did not go as planned for most of us, maybe even these days into the second half. Yet when am on the verge of giving up, one of my favorite reality shows “MasterChef Australia back to win” 2020 which I hope to expound on in the near future, unconsciously and constantly pops up in my head. I am reminded that every single day is a new opportunity to actually win at this life thing. Another chance to try again until I win. That one actually gets better on the second attempt, the third and so on and so forth.

Sometimes we are unkind to ourselves, we take no credit for the small things we are able to achieve each and every day. So keep on because we will get there eventually. Giving up is not an option, remind yourself to increase your goals rather than decrease your efforts. When all is said and done remind yourself that you are doing better than you think and you will get there, we all will. Bottom line is the second half of the year, CHOOSE, to be kind to yourself.